Friday, 21 September 2012

that one fine saturday...

I admit that I've been neglecting this blog for too long now. The last post was on 15th of May, that was like a century ago. I keep giving excuses but this time, not anymore. But yet, I still have to apology for the long hiatus. 

Joel has finally graduated with a bachelor degree under his belt and his girlfriend, I'm very proud of his achievements I'm sure with his degree, he can start looking for his dream career. Good for you baby! We decided to meet before he went of to Penang for his convocation. Since he's currently working in Labuan, he had to take the ferry to cross to Menumbok and to reach KK, he then rode on a bus that took longer than 2 hours. Such a hassle to see me no? But he said he didn't mind at all as long as he's able to see me before his flight the next day. I went to fetch him at the bus station near the KK Court and by the time he entered my car, our dating begun. We didn't chat much when we were headed to Putatan, maybe because earlier I was feeling a little annoyed because I had to wait for him to arrive to KK and he sensed it so he decided to not talk so that I won't feel more agitated. When arrived in Putatan, we went to Comfort Hotel to check in for my convenient to fetch and send him to Terminal 2 airport since I live in Putatan. After check in, we rest for awhile then he decided he wanted to watch Resident Evil: Retribution since it has been the longest time since the last time he went to a cinema to watch a movie. We then head to our favorite cinema, GSC Suria to buy tickets then eat before the movie starts. since he's on a budget, we just ate at Suria's food court. We bought our food from the usual stall. We then walked around the mall to kill time and just enjoy us walking together, hand in hand. When I think about it now, it made me miss him so much. The movie ended a little after 7pm then he decided that he wanted to go back to the hotel to rest but before that, we stopped by at the pekan for him to buy mineral water and some snacks for him to munch on. Then we hang out at the hotel for awhile then I had to leave because I had to fetch Marsha from work.

The next day, I went to his hotel quite early. I arrived there at 5am. Yes, I had to woke up at 4.30am to get ready and thank goodness I don't have to drive far to fetch him and we managed to spend time alone before I send him to the airport.

Our dating routines are just the same and to be honest, I wanted to do something different but I'm not really sure why we keep doing the same thing everytime we went out together. Maybe because of time constraint. Oh well, I love to be with him anyway and being in a long distant relationship, I have to be grateful even the time we are at each other's side are short and brief.

Okay, that's all for this posts. 
Jessica :)


Monday, 21 May 2012


Wow! what a long hiatus has it been?! This blog has been neglected for far too long. I usually update at my personal blog but due too heavy assignments, that blog too has been disregard and not being attended to. Now that all of the things that had to do with my assessment and assignments have been completed, I can now relax a bit before the final exam and my practical training!! Yes, I'm finally about to complete my studies but I still have to undergo the required practical and I admit that I am a tad bit nervous about it. I'm nervous about everything and I'm sooo afraid that I won't do a great job with it. I have to pray a lot for that! But before that, I need to pray so that my final examination will go on smoothly. :)

So Joel was in town for the whole weekdays last week and at that period of time, I was at my happiest state I have never been that ecstatic since the last time I saw him and that was like a month ago. I tried my hardest to spend most of my time to 'savour' him! *kinky* LOL! I just wanted to be with him and that's all I did, minus that last Thursday which I wasn't allowed to go out by my mum. I know you think that I'm still being treated like a little girl by her and you are right, unfortunately. We didn't get to do so much things but I was happy enough to see him in front of me. People said that being away makes you miss your partner even more and I absolutely agree with that. Most of the time, we were accompanied by my sister, Marsha and I'm glad that they both clicked. They have the same taste in movies but when it comes to the movies that I chose, he didn't like most of them. I don't really mind about it that much cos at least there's a thing that my boyfriend and my sister have in common on. Even my cousin Al have met Joel too. I haven't ask him what he thought of Joel but that will be in our conversation when I see him. Although he didn't stay long in KK, I know that he had tried his best to come and see me. I hope I can see him before I start my practical training cos it will be harder for us to meet then. But Joel assured me that he will try his best to meet cos he can't stand not to see me too long. I can't stand not seeing him too if it's too long. Actually, I did plan something before he return to Kota Belud but all the plans were just plans, some distractions came up and ruin everything. I was so sad when I went to see him on the day he went back to his hometown but we managed to have lunch even though it was just for a while. He gave me his towel and a small bottle of perfume to remind me about his smell. I love his manly scent! :)

In the one month time that we couldn't see each other, I admit that I tend to get emotional quite easily with him and my hormones are going WILD! I get moody instantly if he replied my texts late and if I found out that he was spending his time on facebook rather than replying my texts, that spiked my anger. And during those times too we were having problems with our relationship. It was a minor one that has something to do with trust issue and other few things but we managed to overcome all the problems cos if we choose to ignore and let it do, it will come back and bite us back in the arse!

But one thing that I like after we overcame the situation, I get better in communicating with him. It's not that I suck in the beginning but Joel honestly told me that I don't really open up to him and I agree with that. Yes, I have the tendency to keep things to myself especially when things went bad or when I'm not in a very good mood. I always left him guessing and that depressed him a bit. I know it's not cool for a couple to hide things from each other and I must say that I'm beginning to learn to let loose and trust him whole-heartedly to tell him anything, even when I feel sad, annoyed or whatever. All I know is that when it comes for a long distance relationship to work, communication is one of the vital key ingredients.

Throughout our 1++ year relationship, Joel has been the backbone and the core that makes the relationship to have a very strong base that made me want to try harder to keep and to protect what we share together, which is the love we have for one another. I will keep my promise to you sayang!

I will always miss...

 Until next post,

Saturday, 18 February 2012

The Idea Of Apology & The Long Story Short

I didn't log in here until this year. Wanna say sorry to her cos neglecting our blog for a long time. Well, probably she will not accept my excuse for that but I still hoping for better. Perhaps this very simple post can change what she think about me (my English getting worse and I don't know already how to blog in a cool way *sigh). Okay..lets start..

Because I'm so...

With my...

and all last year and the other problem that stop me from posting something in our blog is...

all the password and username for this blog...and now, I'm busy with my...

at the office and can't meet you often...

Okay, enough of that...
Jessica is a very patient person even sometimes I made a mistake and didn't realize it. So I'm hoping for the best in her to forgive me. As I know, 14 Feb is the sacred day for couples all over the world (If they celebrate it) cos it's a celebration of love. fyi, we've met and go for a's not a candlelight's far from that. I think it's more like hanging out with her. To be honest, I'm not that kind of person that go into that so-so romantic stuff cos I'm not. I know deep in her heart she wanna have the moment that she can keep forever to tell her grandchild but she's not the type of person that `let out' what she wants all the time. I just can't face it if she's sad or unhappy about something but I did try my best to make her day that day.

I believe in us for no other reasons except the fact that I love her so much..

  The smile that I always miss

Another sweet smile...

Picture of us that day. I. Look like Shit...She will always looks better than me..LOL

Monday, 5 December 2011

Poor blog!

After the longest time, this blog has a new update. Joel and I are very sorry for neglecting this blog since we have other commitments, Joel with his final year of assignments and as for me, I have assignments too and of course my well known trait which is lazy.

I was just browsing some pictures and they remind me of Joel.

Sunday, 16 October 2011

Pictures together.

Here's the thing that I'm sure everybody would do which is when you miss a certain person, you would look at the pictures of that person or pictures of the two of you together. And yours truly here does exactly the same thing too. The past few days, I was all sappy, down, emotional, mad and I was overwhelmed with the mixture of different feelings and most of the time, I would throw all those ugly tantrums on Joel. Poor guy. And when that happen, what Joel would do is to give me time to cool off which is a wise thing to do. We had a  small argument earlier which led to us not texting and talking to each other and we made up last night. We're in a long distance relationship at the moment and of course it made me miss him all the time and when we have finally made up, the feeling of missing him got even worse. We're saying our sorries but all of the sudden, he stopped texting me. I think he fell asleep so I just let him sleep.

The urge to see his face overpowering me so I  grab my phone to see all his pictures that he mmsed and I found out that in a year plus of our relationship, we don't really took much pictures together. I think I only have like 10 pictures of us together saved in my phone. It is I who should be blamed on this cos I'm really camera shy but I know it would be nice to see a lot of pictures with both of us in them, all happy and in love. When he gets home, I will do it.

Doesn't matter if I look like shit in the pictures :)

Until next post, Jessica :)

Saturday, 24 September 2011

Goodnight Moon

Watching Liverpool vs Wolves earlier but dad changed the channel and decided to watch Arsenal. Bleh daddy /: So I just went into my room and listening to some songs. My iTunes was on shuffle and after some Adele, Coldplay, Arctic Monkeys and Lily Allen, this song came along and I LOVE it! A song that filled with so much love and sappiness, a very romantic one. Whenever I listen to this song, it reminds me of Joel.

Every. Single. Time. And yes, I miss you more love :)

Do you feel us falling? Cause I can feel us falling....
Falling in love, that is :)

Friday, 23 September 2011