Monday, 5 December 2011

Poor blog!

After the longest time, this blog has a new update. Joel and I are very sorry for neglecting this blog since we have other commitments, Joel with his final year of assignments and as for me, I have assignments too and of course my well known trait which is lazy.

I was just browsing some pictures and they remind me of Joel.

Sunday, 16 October 2011

Pictures together.

Here's the thing that I'm sure everybody would do which is when you miss a certain person, you would look at the pictures of that person or pictures of the two of you together. And yours truly here does exactly the same thing too. The past few days, I was all sappy, down, emotional, mad and I was overwhelmed with the mixture of different feelings and most of the time, I would throw all those ugly tantrums on Joel. Poor guy. And when that happen, what Joel would do is to give me time to cool off which is a wise thing to do. We had a  small argument earlier which led to us not texting and talking to each other and we made up last night. We're in a long distance relationship at the moment and of course it made me miss him all the time and when we have finally made up, the feeling of missing him got even worse. We're saying our sorries but all of the sudden, he stopped texting me. I think he fell asleep so I just let him sleep.

The urge to see his face overpowering me so I  grab my phone to see all his pictures that he mmsed and I found out that in a year plus of our relationship, we don't really took much pictures together. I think I only have like 10 pictures of us together saved in my phone. It is I who should be blamed on this cos I'm really camera shy but I know it would be nice to see a lot of pictures with both of us in them, all happy and in love. When he gets home, I will do it.

Doesn't matter if I look like shit in the pictures :)

Until next post, Jessica :)

Saturday, 24 September 2011

Goodnight Moon

Watching Liverpool vs Wolves earlier but dad changed the channel and decided to watch Arsenal. Bleh daddy /: So I just went into my room and listening to some songs. My iTunes was on shuffle and after some Adele, Coldplay, Arctic Monkeys and Lily Allen, this song came along and I LOVE it! A song that filled with so much love and sappiness, a very romantic one. Whenever I listen to this song, it reminds me of Joel.

Every. Single. Time. And yes, I miss you more love :)

Do you feel us falling? Cause I can feel us falling....
Falling in love, that is :)

Friday, 23 September 2011

Thursday, 22 September 2011


"Love isn't about finding the perfect one. It's seeing an imperfect person perfectly."

I hold tightly to the quote above. Let's face the fact, people that are perfect do not exist. Not one man on the face of the earth has never done any mistake in his entire life, even children make mistakes. And so are we. Human can't never escape from making mistakes because as long as we are still alive, we are still learning, living and surviving. We can strive for it, make progress toward it but attaining perfection is impossible. Life is a learning process and it will never stop as we grow older. Even though we stop, the universe will always find its own ways to teach us a lesson. It is unavoidable.

When it comes to love, what each person believes he or she requires in a relationship may be vary. All of us seek balance in our relationship. I have been in a relationship for more than a year now and although it is not consider a long period but I learnt that loving someone else means you love their souls- the good, the bad and the ugly. And at some point I know that I will be let down, offended, hurt, disillusioned, angry, stressed, frustrated and upset. But the big question is, can I still love him? Not forgetting that I too will be the one who offends, is wrong, behaves insensitively, hurt him whether I purposely mean to or not. And comes another bigger question, will he still loves me? I realized through our fights and arguments, without pushing through the bad, we can never enjoy the good that an enduring relationship brings.

Although that sometimes your actions hurt me, I still love you very much sayang because I know you have your flaws and I know that I did my share of hurting you too.

I love all your imperfections because those are the things that made you perfect just the way you are and those are the things that completes me.

I love you :)

Tuesday, 23 August 2011

La Vi en Rose

Saw her post and thinking of something nice to reply it....enjoy~ (vc made by myself)

Time is running out!

Nowadays when I woke up, the first thing on my mind was what date is it today. Then I would check my phone for the date and counting the days cos probably in 2 weeks time, Joel will be leaving KK for Selangor for his study. I realized that there aren't much time left, he'll leave me soon. That's how I start my day since monday, feeling all wobbly and tad bit sad too. Knowing that we will be wayyy apart from each other makes it worst. Yeah, I know we can skype and all that but he'll be busy with his study and all and we'll be doing our own stuff. I've been on the edge lately just by thinking about it. To be honest, I'm not spending enough time with him for the past few months that he's been here. If only the semester break is longer.

Woke up early today, maybe about 5.30am and couldn't sleep after that so I just lie on my bed procrastinating and all of the sudden last saturday crossed my mind. It was such a lovely saturday that very day. Everything was so nice. We laughed, smiled, hugged. A few droplets of tears fell as I reminiscing. Must be tears of joy I said to myself. Then reality hit. He'll leave soon and that made me deeply sad again but I just coax myself with the thought that although he'll be so far away, our memories still remain and I'm pretty sure he'd text every single day while he's there.

I need to be strong and yes I will be or maybe..

Until next time, Jessica

Sunday, 14 August 2011

I Say 10 To Make Me Think 10

Still don't have any idea about my blog's challenge. So for today, I wanna post something that I think inspired me. If you know me better, you will know that I like to read quotes and sayings. It's like my fast food when I didn't have anything to do by reading what other people think about the world today. So, these are 10 of them that really make my day today. Enjoy :) (me and Jess are fine and will go to KK to meet her this Saturday! ^^)

Wednesday, 10 August 2011

10 Days Boyfriend Blog Challenge- Day 6,7,8,9,10

So I've not been updating the challenges due to not having the mood to blog or type anything on my mac. I've been spending my early semester break with reading books that my friend lend to me. It makes me happy cos reading is one of the thing that I love. Okay, I'm heading side tracks already. So back to the point, today is the last day of the challenge. Yeah, time flies really fast these days and I don't even realize that today is DAY 10!! Weeee :) Joel said that he's gonna do a challenge and post it here too. I'm uber excited about that!!

Day 6 - What did you do the last time you hang out?

Like always, he had to drive all the way to KK from KB just to see me. So he fetched me at home and headed to Suria Shopping Mall like we've planned before. He wanted to go to Ripcurl to check out some camera films there. He asked me on which floor Ripcurl is located but I'm not really sure on which floor so we tour the whole mall well not really. We only managed to go to 3rd floor ( we started at 7th floor cos there's where we park) and he decided not to continue to find the shop probably because he felt lazy already and wanted to watch movie. The mall was pretty packed at that time because of the Shopaholic Bazaar that was going on, I wanted to check things out at first but looking at Joel's face, I decided not to. I think he was annoyed with how crowded it was. So we went straight to the 8th floor to watch Larry Crowne and that was the first time we watch romance movie together. I'm pretty sure that those people who shared the same cinema hall with us are all couples. The movie was okay and I'm a HUGE fan of Tom Hanks so it's not really a disappointing movie. We had a few laughs and I was hugging his arm while watching. It was comforting. So after that, we went to Marrybrown to have lunch. We did a lot more things after that but we should keep that to ourselves :)

Day 7 - What was the last movie yah'll saw together?

As I've mentioned in challenge 6, the last time movie we watched was Larry Crowne. It was a nice, lovely, simple, sappy, kinda predictable kind of movie. Would I suggest people to watch this? I would if only to those who watches that kind of movie. If you don't, then this movie is not for you. I basically forced Joel to watch it with me since we never watch any lovey dovey movie together before this. hahaha And he just went with it since he's being the good boyfriend and listens to me. I wanted to watch the movie because of Tom Hanks. I've been a huge fan of his since the first time I watched Forrest Gump probably when I was in primary 4, it was on ntv7 and that was like the first movie that I don't have to read the malay subtitles at the bottom of the screen to understand what the movie is all about. My english is as awesome when I was a lot younger, proud of that :)

Until he was downsized, affable, amiable Larry Crowne (Hanks) was a superstar team leader at the big-box company where he's worked since his time in the Navy. Underwater on his mortgage and unclear on what to do with his suddenly free days, Larry heads to his local college to start over. There he becomes part of a colorful community of outcasts, also-rans and the overlooked all trying to find a better future for themselves...often moving around town in a herd of scooters. In his public-speaking class, Larry develops an unexpected crush on his teacher Mercedes Tainot (Roberts), who has lost as much passion for teaching as she has for her husband. The simple guy who has every reason to think his life has stalled will come to learn an unexpected lesson: when you think everything worth having has passed you by, you just might discover your reason to live. Written by Universal Pictures 

Day 8 - What do you guys do often?

Since we don't get to see each other every day, we ALWAYS text each other. I mean like ALL THE TIME! We would text until we fell asleep and text each other the 1st thing in the morning. We always want to know what each other are doing. 

Day 9 - Give your definition of love

Love is very hard to define because it sees far more than it will ever tell. To me, love is wonderful and it is a sense of how heaven feels like. It is going beyond yourself and stretching who you are for someone else, which means open yourself, trying to improve your lover's life, allowing the person to be themselves and accept them for who they are ( not what wish them to be). Never expect anything when you are in love and love for the sake of love, not waiting what will you get in return.

Day 10 - Write a letter to your boyfriend

Dear Joel, I can't thank God enough for creating you 23 years ago. You are the first one who brave enough to reach out to me. I can't never forget our first chat, I'm being snobby and you're being the nice guy who started the conversation. I feel your love and thank you for your deep love. I know that you trust me, would do anything for me, I know that you will always be there for me through thick and thin and isn't afraid to be seen with me. You treat me right all the time. I'm so blessed to have the chance of knowing you, to be in love and being loved by you. We may not be together everyday, buy you have me forever. I love you Joel! 

End of challenge 

Thursday, 4 August 2011

10 Days Boyfriend Blog Challenge- Day 4 & 5

Here's the thing with me. I have this disease of forgetting things and the worst one ever, LAZY! But for challenge Day 4, it's not that I didn't do it on purpose yesterday. I absolutely forgot about it cos I was busy with *cough* studying *cough cough* and tweeting! Yes, I'm a twitter addict and in twitter world, everybody could be your friend :) So, I'm going to post 2 challenges in one entry ( I know I'm brilliant),  challenge day 4 and day 5 so that I will focus on my studies even more later. As if la kan? Hahaha

Enough with the ramblings, it's now time for challenges. Are you ready? I know I am :)

Day 4 - 5 facts about your boyfriend

1. He's a photographer enthusiast! He likes to take picture just like I do but he of course is better than I am and he has GREAT knowledge about Adobe Photoshop.

2. He used to be a smoker but he stopped because I told him so :)

3. Manchester United fan. Just 'fan' won't be enough, HUGE fan or FANATIC would be more suitable I guess. I wonder how will it be if both of us are watching a match between MU against Liverpool. Since I'm so sarcastic and frequently bad talking towards the opponent teams when I watch any football match that my Liverpool is playing, I know high tension will absolutely be the barrier and we won't be sitting close to each other. Woah, I'm playing that scene in my head right now and it's so surreal! LOLs

4. He has this 3 moles on his face. Okay, I'm not insulting him or anything. It's just that when we're together, I love to touch them. I would hug him close so that our face would be like 0.0001 cm away from each other and my hands would roam his head and I would touch those cute moles one by one.
p/s: If you're reading this sayang, I love anything about you even your moles :)

5. Joel is a hugger and great kisser I'm not exaggerating. I won't explain in details on that. Enough said :)

Day 5  - Make a list of 10 things you like about your boyfriend

1. His feelings, his love for me, his willingness to drive far (KB-KK) just to meet me
2. His broad knowledge of photography. I like the fact that I can go to him to ask things about photography and I have him to talk about it :)
3. For always being there when I need him
4. His quirks, wits
5. Those amazing sexy lips :)
6. His warm hugs that makes me feel at home
7. Kisses ^___________^
8. His confidence, manly man attitude
9. How he loves his parents, family
10. Great driving skills, he likes to drive fast!

Next: Day 6 - What did you do the last time you hung out?

Until next challenge!

Posted by Jessica

Wednesday, 3 August 2011

10 Days Boyfriend Blog Challenge- Day 3

Here comes day 3 of the challenge, just keep breathing and I'm actually waiting the time strikes 12am sharp cos I'm going to call this lucky guy of mine to wish him Happy 1 year Anniversary! Another less than 3 hours. *excites*

Day 3 - Favorite picture of you and your boyfriend

All of our pictures are my favorites! Seriously no bias okay :) So I've chosen these 2 pictures cos he smiled widely for one of the pictures and the other one, well, I look beautiful in it! HAHA

I know that Joel posted the second picture before but yeah, i just give it a breath of colours :)

Happy 1 year Anniversary sayang, I love you forever :)

Next: Day 4 - 5 facts about your boyfriend.

Posted by Jessica :)

Tuesday, 2 August 2011

10 Days Boyfriend Blog Challenge- Day 2

Day 2 - Favorite picture of your boyfriend

Ooohhhh this challenge makes me feel excited! Cos I'm going to show the whole world how my boyfriend looks like. hahahahaha :P

So without further a due, here's my favorite picture of him.

He rarely smile for his pictures but I think he did smile a bit for this one. I think he mmsed me this to me on his way to uni. He looks sexy here, that's how I see it and I love how short his hair is. Very tidy and the glasses made him look smarter. Those sexy lips... Emm, I think I should stop here before I keep going on with his lips and all. Some things are only for the both of us to know, if you know what I mean!

That's all for today :)

Next: Day 3 - Favorite picture of you and your boyfriend

Posted by Jessica 

Monday, 1 August 2011

10 Days Boyfriend Blog Challenge- Day 1

On the previous post, I've posted a blog challenge that I decided to do. I've completed a blog challenge before but it's a 30 days blog challenge and unlike this, there are only 10 days. Which means I only have to complete 10 challenges. Sounds easy? Hopefully it will, fingers crossed! So let's get down to business, shall we? :)

Day 1 - Where did you meet your boyfriend?

The first time I met my boyfriend face to face was at Suria Sabah Shopping Mall on the 11th of December 2009, about 4 months after we declared ourselves official. You might be wondering why does it took so long. To be honest, we've never met each other in the earlier months of our relationship cos he's studying in Selangor and I'm in KK. The only way that we get to 'date' was through phone calls, constant video calls on skype. That's how our relationship survived its early stages.

Moving back to the main topic, the actual spot that I first met Joel was in front of Voir of Suria Sabah. I arrived probably 15 minutes earlier than him so I went in to check out some clothes and not long after that he called me and letting me know that he had arrived all the way from KB and was looking for a parking. So I was like okay and continue browsing through the garments. None of them caught my attention but I think I didn't pay too much attention on them anyway cos I was toooo nervous and excited to see my boyfriend for the first time. lol! Suddenly he called again to let me know that he already parked his car and on his way to see me. I went out and waited for him at the hallway, in front of the shop. He then called me and asked on which floor I was and I said I was on the 1st floor and standing at the hallway. He told me that he was on the third floor, also at the hallway. I kept looking up but didn't see him. He then said that he saw me. There I was, panicking a little bit and I kept looking up searching for him like a fool but still didn't catch a glimpse of him. We were still on the phone talking at that time and he was laughing at me. In the end, he walked over to me. And there we were, in front of Voir, our first look in the eye and the rest is history.

I think that's enough for today. It's not necessarily for me to tell what happened next, isn't it? Haha

Next: Day 2 - Favorite picture of your boyfriend

Posted by Jessica :)

Sunday, 31 July 2011

I decided to do this :)

This is a 10 Days Boyfriend Blog Challenge that I've decided to do. It's just for fun, really. But on second thought, it would allow me to post every day for 10 consecutive days ( since I'm famous for my laziness *wink*) and this blog won't be so dull anymore. I believe that girls are more concerned about the outlook of everything, same goes to me. I like to see many posts on my blogs, including this one. Before this, Joel just posted 1 and the blog doesn't look really good with only that. It needs more content. That's how I think, don't you? :)

Day 1 - Where did you meet your boyfriend?
Day 2 - Favorite picture of your boyfriend
Day 3 - Favorite picture of you and your boyfriend
Day 4 - 5 facts about your boyfriend
Day 5 - Make a list of 10 things you like about your boyfriend
Day 6 - What did you do the last time you hung out?
Day 7 - What was the last movie yah’ll saw together?
Day 8 - What do you guys do often?
Day 9 - Give your definition of love
Day 10 - Write a letter to your boyfriend

Looking forward to be done with this!

Posted by Jessica :)

Friday, 22 July 2011

our Story, Our Life, Us

To whomever this may concern;
Before you read this letter about my life up to this point in time, please put down anything you may be holding, sit down, and make sure this has your undivided attention, else you may not fully understand what you are about to read. You are more than welcome to stop reading at any time, but I would prefer if you would read until the end, so there are no misconceptions about myself. Well then, let's get started, shall we?

   How much does one share, and how much does one keep for themselves? the whole of it would make the most beautiful of novels. sometimes real life is more magical than fiction. Well things change and here I am with someone that so important to me blogging, blog-walking and sharing pieces of our everyday life both together and also when it comes to both of us are apart from each other not emotionally, but physically. To remember all the things that happened in my life, there's certain things that I really thanked God cos it happened to myself. First, a person born to this world which is me. Second, I was raised in a family that are very concerned about discipline. I didn't complaint about that because it made me who I am now. Third, and this is the best thing of all things that ever happened to me atm (*excepting the future) is being in love with Jess. Well, enough for history. 

   Since the blog's title is now, today and forever I wanna share something that I think are so NOT COOL when you are a boyfie to someone. Jess's birthday was yesterday and she's turned 22 officially YESTERDAY. Before that, me and her already plan for her BIG day (*means celebrate her b-day together) together but something happened and we have no choice but to cancel that BIG plan. She was sad (*now she's okay *glad) and I have to convince her that we will celebrate our birthday together before I go back to Selangor to finish my last semester. She's convinced and I will keep my promise to her no matter what. I'm typing this right NOW cos this is one of my promise to write something for our blog :). 

   For TODAY, boring is the word to describe my day. It rain heavily the whole day. Being sleepy and lazy. That's what exactly rain brought for me today. Family is fine and they also do their own things at home and pretending invisible to them the whole day was a good thing to do cos I'm being so lazy to do anything if they ask for my help or something (*very bad). Enough bout my so not interesting day. 

   FOREVER for me is just a grammar, a word to describe and some alphabets that people wrote in a dictionary with unique order to give meaning for other people to understand something related to their daily life or for their own understanding in many terms. Nothing lasts forever except who believe in GOD will say GOD lasts forever and I'm one of the believers. But this word can be meaningful in many terms and it's so subjective sometimes hard to understand the deep meaning of it. Let's say I wanna put the forever word in my own relationship terms, honestly I will say me and Jess will not be together forever cos all live things will die eventually but our emotion and feelings to each other will lasts forever cos someone else maybe our family, a friend, someone that we care or even our haters will remember us as a couple, a soul mate and they will tell and pass it to someone else  whenever people talk about us. That's the true definition of FOREVER to me. It's normal when people start to questioning every little things that happened in their life, so do I.

   Still reading? Okay. I don't expect people will read this but I'm happy if you are. This is my first entry for our blog like my promise to her. Maybe I did "talk" too much so enough for now. ciaow 
*sorry for my brkoenEnglshi

"The heart can freeze or it can burn. The pain will ease if we can learn. There's uncertainty in FOREVER, there is no past if we chose to forget it, I live TODAY as my last. there’s only us, there’s only this. Forget regret or life is yours to miss. No other road, no other way, no day but TODAY."